Again my summer isn't the way I wanted it. I have moods swings all the time and it's driving me nuts. I am only happy when I'm with my friends and they don't piss me off. I want a guy or girl. Someone to call my own. Someone to give me hugs when I need them. I feel empty. I look at all the happy couples and I wonder what's wrong with me. Why can't I find someone? I'm a really nice person and I try to make people happy, even when I'm not. My friend and I were talking about her getting fingered (sorry bout saying it that way, couldn't think of any other way to phrase it), and she says "At least I can get something". She mentioned that I was seventeen and that I've never been kissed and she's only fourteen and has gone that far. Even though it's true it hurts. It made me feel even more unwanted. I just want someone to want me so I won't feel so alone. =[

sorry about my ranting, just in that sort of mood and I have no one to talk to. I thought it was better to get my feelings out on here then on my wrist with a razor, or on my palm with a lighter. :(

Sorry the reply is late, but I haven't been in on the boards checking much. I wanted to say your post sounds just like they way I felt. Good job in posting! That's your first step! Now, there's nothing wrong with you at all, sometimes finding the right person takes time, as I've figured out. I want you to know people are different from eachother, some go further than others and move faster, being slow doesn't mean it's a bad thing. When you find that person (which means meeting new people, getting out there, being social) your heart will tell you when it is ready to move in. Sometimes moving that quickly could ruin the relationship.

Also, I understand that you cut? That can be fixed if you wish it to be, slowly come off of it, rely on other ways of dealing. Try..writing, listening to music, going for a jog, or riding your bike..anything that will take your mind off cutting. This way of dealing only brings you down more, where as the other ways of dealing release a chemical in your body that makes you feel better about yourself, and makes it easier to get the one of your dreams (people are drawn to happiness and comfort) *hint hint nudge nudge*. So try these things, if they do not help seek counselling, or tell a friend. Venting makes it seem easier and you don't have that big burden on your shoulders.

Hope this helps!

your not alone. i'm 16 never been kissed or had a boyfriend. i know older people in the same position. there is nothing wrong with you. what you can to is learn yourself. really find out who you are, get comfortable with yourself and you'll find that being alone isn't that bad. if a guy or girl comes along then it happens. try and get help to stop hurting yourself and find other outlets to let out pain like music, running cryings ect... like what lonelyteddybear said.
ok i'm not saying what i will write next is true about you based on the info i have i'm assuming a couple of things
find something to do that just makes you feel happy, some sort of activity.
think positively
don' let people put you down even if they're joking, it probibly means they feel bad about themselves.
and just really get to know yourself, and other people casually.
if you have any questions for me just pm me or email or im me.
good luck
Chrissy