Okay, I'm young. I'm not sure what the age is for this website, but I'm pretty damn desperate! So, please excuse my rambling, I would love it if you would read it and help me.

Okay, it all started off when I was young. I was S-Harrassed. I didn't realise what was happening until when I grew up and started to understand the world, but I still couldn't stop it and it carried on. But then the person died, and in my mind I thought 'yes, they're dead'. But then I felt guilty for this thought, this person was in my family. It felt wrong, everyone was sad and mourning, I was happy. And then in school people noticed I don't act as happy as most (although I often seem happy as I cover it up). This is cause of the first thing I said. I then was called an 'emo' by so many people, and these people were telling me to go cut my wrists. I do that already though, and people keep going to check making sarcastic comments. My teacher found out what they're doing and now she's worried in case they had made me start cutting, but it wasnt them who made it start. They made it worse. Anyway, my friend acts like I'm all happy aswell 'no she's not an emo/she doesn't cut/she's too happy' and stuff like that. And now little things can set me off into unhappiness, the worst part is I've hid all this.
Sorry for my rambling, please help.

hun youve got to get it out, if your not happy dont just pretend everythings ok. you have to come into realization in what your feelings so you can make yourself happy. and as for the s-harrassment.....when i was around the age of 9 my step dad thought he could touch and feel on me when i turned 11 i took a bat to him....well i tried to anyway no one ever found out...that craps scary you shouldn't feel guilty bout stuff like that if someone does that shit they should die a slow and painfull death, i dont care who they are.

The first thing you need to realize is THESE PEOPLE ARE NOT FRIENDS. REAL friends don't tell you to hurt yourself in ANY WAY. I suggest you find a new group of friends who are supportive in a positive way.

Secondly, You need to feel. If you're sad you're sad if you're mad you're mad if you're happy you're happy. Thats life. Everyone is aloud to feel how they want. I don't think in my opninion that you were really happy when that person died. Maybe the feelings of sadness were so intense that you were scared to let them out and it was easier to look happy. Pretending is easier then being real. I think you should look into some sort of couselling that will help you get all this out of your system so you can go on to lead a very happy and healthy life. They can work with you to identify problems and teach how to deal with feelings you are having without pretending everything is fine because you know in your heart that its not all fine. Be honest with yourself and great things will come from it.


Third, age limit is 13+

i agree with her but i couldnt put it into words that make since