to be honest i dont know if i have a disorder or what it is but well. im kinda starting to wonder if i'm mentally ok.and im kinda terrified to tell anyone about the things that have been going on. on a regular baisis i feel...suisidal its weird and every once and a while i'll get this complete energy boost and i'm like this disty blonde...and to top things on top of if ....latley i'll loose track of what im saying or i know what i want to say but i can't ... and another lovely thing is when i get stressed out like i currently am i have to concentrate hard to read or the letters look like japanese....i'm not sure if these are just the effects of me being stressed or if its something thats serious...i feel like i'm mental falling apart and it scares me..anyone have any suggestions?

is there anything particular that your stressed out about?